So how does this work?
I go from suffering…. to sickly and somewhat peaceful but aching inside…. to just plain peaceful… to peaceful with some great moments…. to joyful life?
I am hesitant to allow myself ‘joyful life’ — even in words!!!! My job/my company have hotels all over the world and this year I passed up 3 free nights, anywhere. In my new life… I will go.
I still feel so sick, so meek. Strong days, but the awareness that I will be much stronger. I’m taking it one day at a time, and I’m going to get better. And from there, there will be no end to the possibilities.
Progress is accepting what is.
Progress is unhooking myself from what used to absorb me.
Progress is awareness over the wake I leave behind me.
Progress is not feeling sad and sorry for myself.
Progress is admitting I am sick and allowing that.
Progress is committing every day to new and nourishing habits.