I find myself thinking of it first thing in the morning, like my mind, half-asleep, has found this pain and needs to pick at it obsessively.
The dear friends I lost in the divorce. And the worst part – I lost them because they didn’t believe me or even want to hear my side of it.
The massive financial hit we took for selling the house too soon.
The massive costs – physically and mentally – of court.
I know that every one of us has regrets. It just seems that the bigger regrets – the ones that I incurred over the past 10 years – the regrets that seem to be life-changing events.
Do you find yourself in the same boat? Going over losses and hurts like a cat obsessively licking its fur??? Ouch, ouch, ouch, fuck, fuck, fuck….. it’s a terrible feeling, and I wish I could get past it. Isn’t it key that we focus on the present and future? Everybody has regrets. But who among us still has vibrant, exciting, scintillating, life-affirming…. D R E A M S……..that could still become realities.
What’s your dream? I have given up on so many of mine… but how about if I lay them out here and you’ll tell me yours? Might as well get it down on paper.
Dream one: publish my novel. Or a screenplay. Or at least an article or story every now and then!
Dream two: Cooking classes in Italy. (a little pricey! But possible.)
Dream three: Scuba Dive (completed in-pool portion already, halfway there)
Dream four: A home that’s all set for hosting. And charcuterie platters at the ready. (almost there).
Dream five: I’d like a promotion.
Maybe these are all attainable……. funny, I thought I wanted to buy another house, but it didn’t actually make the list.
Tell me your dreams, friends… it feels so much better than regrets and feeling like your whole life went down the tubes.
We. Are. Alive. Anything is possible.